The Number on the Scale...

Just recently I have begun to accept that fact that I don't and will never have the "perfect body" because the truth is no one does. What I mean is people can get to their goal weight or start living healthier lives but most people will always tell you there is still something they want to change.

For most of my life I have been in the overweight category and according to my doctor based on my current weight I still am. It has taken me such a long time to accept the fact that that number on the scale means nothing. I came to this realization because I would set a goal weight and tell my self "when I get to ____ weight i'll finally be happy with my body". I was wrong; I would reach that weight and look in the mirror and still find something wrong or something that I wanted to change like; the extra fat around my thighs.

No matter how hard I pushed myself in the gym, or how much I change my diet the fat around my inner thighs wont go away and I am the only one who beats myself up for it. I have a wonderful Fiancé, Steve, who loves me for my imperfect body. My body is covered in stretch-marks and extra little pockets of of fat. The truth is Steve's body is the same, he too has stretch-marks covering his body, and he has extra skin around his lower belly from all the weight he lost but, I don't look at him any differently, and I have never judged him for what his body looks like. I have told him "you earned your stripes!" The truth is I too have earned my stripes.

What I have started to do to put myself in a more positive headspace when it comes to my body is to tell myself something positive every day when I look in the mirror. I am also doing my best to not letting the voice in my head tell me I am not good enough because I am good enough.

I will continue to workout and eat well (for the most part because chocolate chip cookies are my weakness). I will always workout and stay active not because I need to see a certain number on the scale but because I have a lot of heart-disease and other health problems in my family and want to do what I can to keep myself healthy!